If only i could feel again

I feel as if the passion, the bright and sparkling eyes, the innocence of thinking the world is fair and opportunity abounds for those who dare to chase it, is slipping away. Is that only for the young and unaccomplished?

Having made it, and looking to the next step , the excitements gone. The wonder is no longer there, nor a goal or dream to pursue. Its like there is a mist surrounding life right now, and i can't seem to make my way out of. Just trodding along, doing good, not better, not worse.

Even love, i wish to be that starry eyed girl full of trust and warmth. I find it so hard to open up and love. 

Need to wake up.