When he calls or sends me a message my heart skips a beat. Yet when he goes quiet for many a day or a week i fall into an abyss of darkness. Not sleeping, anxious, dreaming of him running off with someone else.
I need to stop being so scared. Sit back. Enjoy life. Wait for him to make his next move.
Today i went for a run. I felt better. I tried to understand my feedling. The past hurts that are making me feel this way.
I feel a little better. I understand the world a little better.
I am still learning but i will survive.
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