Remember

Long time ago i believed in soul mates and lovers. That life was full of brightness and that one day i would end up leading spectacular.

Then life happened.

And now i settle for mediocre or barely that. I think it's amazing because the world has brought to me a sense of reality. That i am complaining or down for no reason. That what i have is actually something wonderful.

So no fireworks, no major sparks. A life thats not sad but not entirely happy either. No real hope for the future but thinking i am escapin something worse.

I have more today than what i had when expectations were high. Am i happier? I am not sure.

I'm exhausted with life.