As lockdown ends and we can socialise and meet in person, I finally said yes to a dinner and meditation session.
And yes I had to force myself to go while I was feeling crappy. But lately reading all these buddhist teachings, I just remembered that it was all just thoughts. I was in a down mode but at some stage that mode will be up or neutral. Thats life.
But I felt really good. Listening to the monk today and spending time with others who are just as spiritual as I am and having tea afterwards and bathing in the kindness and compassion, it just felt peaceful. Something I've been missing in life that I want to get back into.
Sure Netflix and chill and alcohol with R got me through lockdown. I almost thought it was it if it wasn't for his freaking out. But maybe it's a good thing we have. We like each others company but also have the space to do what we want to do. And this spiritual life and friendships - they bring me peace. A life worth living.
I just feel content with everything as it is. And a reminder just to focus on the present moment - not the past or the future. Just to make the most of what I have right now.
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