So here i am in that familiar situation again, packing up my life into various suitcases, about to leave another life, about to start another life.
And again this time i am ready to leave. Having exhausted my friends, having not made many and having seen the very few friends i have made leave my life. The thing about travelling is that you tend to meet other travellers. Everyone always leaves for home. Yet i travel from place to place to place that even home lacks the familiarity.
So its been a tough few months but its been an experience where i feel i have matured, yet i think some experiences are better left alone so that you can do the learning at your own pace. Yes i am setting myself up for becomming a global manager, yes these experiences are pulling in notches on my belt as i become a corporate globetrotter, yet i have this immense feeling - Is this what i want?
Write now i am lonely, i have no close friends. Sometimes life is peachy and exciting, sometimes its one huge low. Maybe sometimes i want to be content.
Yet it hasn't all been bad, i just happen to be in one of those moods.
My weekends in Bombay, wandering through colaba, the markets, the bazaars, the exclusive sushi bars, casually getting into a can to stroll through malabar hill, to wander through a museam and enjoy a fresh lime soda. Those visits have been magical from learning to confidentloy get around India on my own to feeling the magic of a city which is so complex and hypocritical and beautiful in its own way.
And then there was those random business trips where i would find myself flying into Bombay and would call a friend and end up at an upmarket bar with a mohito in one hand and a papaya sushi in the other, laughing and drinking with my globe trotting successful worldly friends. Those are the moments where you pause and reflect on how lucky you are.
And that moment when i was standing at the ledge of a waterfall about to rapel down with only the rope as my life line and i fully connected with the quote on my strawberry outboud tour operators T-shirt "Adventure is when you say to yourself, ''Oh, now I've got myself into an awful mess; I wish ....."". But like all adventures its the courage it takes to make that first step down thats the hardest, and when you push yourself off its an amazing feeling of accomplishment, to repel down the waterfall, feeling the water on your skin, to see the ground approaching and gazing out over the mountainside when time starts moving slower, that makes it all worthwhile.
Another flight took me to Goa. Now what a beautiful place that is. Beach, sun and a social life. I made more friends in three days that i had in the last three months. From walking along the beach, taking a boat ride along the backwaters to sitting at the beach cafe sipping hot lemon tea and papaya juice while watching the ocean - If bliss needed to be redefined that would be the definition.
And the unexpected moments of romance and what could be. That last morning sitting at the beach cafe in palolem i meet someone that sparks my interest. Lovely palolem, the sun, the beach, the seafood, the friendliness and the potential sparks of romance are enough for me to come back there, and so on the nonsical whim i book myself a flight back over. After my trip to the Himalayas in Nepal and a short look at the gangas of Varanasi. Now its at those moments that i really feel the excitement.
So life has been a whole coktail of emotions ...
