Its been a while

Years really since i have sat down to write here properly.

It's been a wierd week. My company declared itself fit for insolvency with self administration. Life has been interesting on the brink of it all coming down but also that tight knit feeling that you are with family in your collegues.

I stayed up all night after i saw that.

Then i got a kitten and then swapped it for a cat with the rescue and the cat is still living at my place. It's lovely to have company.

And then i went on a date. Thats right. First date in maybe two years. Well not first but the first that wasn't a dud. That ended in a kiss and a date the next day which lasted well into the morning the next day and brunch.

He's a nice guy thats a bit of a bad boy. I think. One in search of his spirituality but at the same time has this other really rough or spunky side to him. It was a fun two nights. I feel much calmer than i used to be when i was younger but also a little bit trying to stay placid about it all and not get too excited.

He's on a spiritual journey which could really only be taken by oneself.

But lets see where it takes us. Lets just be happy in the moment.

It's funny I'm so used to being by myself here but tonight i feel a little lonely. Part of me wishes he would call to say good night. That it would be one of daily phone calls. Bit then he is off for good for a year and getting attached may not be the best thing in the world.

While i am happy i am scared as well.