Loveless

The other day I told him I loved him. I felt it too. His reaction . Barely anything. Perhaps I am not in love. I cry myself to sleep. 

He's moved on

When you first see that picture and you see her in his arms. How happy she looks. How he holds her the way he used to hold you. You remember the memories.

And your with a man that is everything he wasn't that you wanted. Yet you lost something for what you gained.

You know your in the right place with the right man.

But for you and I, it was foolish young love that has that certain ring to it that is almost dillusional. I miss that crazy falling in love, looking deep into each others eyes and falling in love time and time over.

I don't have that with my man. I probably never will. Its not his personality.

But in a lot of ways i get what i need from him. Everything we didn't have actually.

I guess you can't have everything.

I feel a little sad. Actually a lot sad at seeing her in your arms. I do miss you. I crave for you. But you know, its over now.

You went your way. I went mine.

No matter how much i miss you. How much you miss me. It's gone now.

Goodbye to you my love. That last bit of youth. Thank you for the memories of feeling that crazy love, even if it was for a moment that could not last.

I loved you at that time.