Just raw emotion

I dream of him daily these days. And we message daily. He has become my best friend and confidant. I look forward to seeing him once this pandemic world returns to semi normal.

Someone that is easy to talk to and confide in. And so very attractive.  From true friendship to love. 

I wonder what we will be. But these days I just can't stop thinking about him. Back then was not the right timing but now is different.

I wonder if he feels the same way. Or if we are just two platonic friends. 

Only the universe will know. But the connection I feel is so so strong!

I'm in love

 For real this time. But he does not know. Maybe he will never know.

And he's been in front of me this whole life. I met him over a decade ago. But I didn't see him. Didn't value the friendship. Didn't see the real him.

I am falling head over heels for a guy that lives in a different continent in the midst of a pandemic which makes flying so hard. But I feel so close to him. We chat and enjoy but really there is something unspoken between us. 

To have it all in this world but not being able to tell him how I actually feel. I wonder if he feels the same. 

How could we make it work?