That guy is a distant memory

So the last man i was with. He was gone for a spiritual journey. He is back now. I may have wanted hime before he left but i don't want him now. Not because he is better or worse. But we didn't work. He was not respectful with me. He was selfish. And he can pretend to be as spiritual as he wants but i know he treated me like shit. And if that is how you treat those closest to you, your grand gestures mean very little.

time and time again i start over

Its hard. I do so well generally. and at times i do so well all the time. I need to find a way to capture that. All the external things i cared about have fallen away. I care about me on the inside. its different.