one last cry ... thought

Dear David,

 

I wish you could see how you could be my world. I wish you could see how we would be perfect together.

you the all powerful and indestructable. I the women that stands by your side. I have the world at my fingertips but i would stand by your shadow. I would be my own person, i would want you to open doors and place your hand protectively around my waist as you guide me through life.

Is that too much to ask? Is that not what you want?

And i call one last plea to the universe of wanting you Mr David Symons, that is before i give my life to the nice guy who treats me like a princess.

My heart lies with you but sometimes life comes knocking on ones door ...

Love is like walking on a plank in the ocean to an oasis

Its one of those shaky times, every little word, every little move, every little gesture, every little word unsaid has meaning. It has the power to make or break who you are.

In love nothing is easy. As is the rush of feeing when all is well, the intensity of all you have to loose is horrifying, paralysing. You crave for the lust, the passion, the effection and the adoration. Only time will tell of the outcome.

So he's on the other side of the world. One minute he can't get enough of me. The other too preoccupied in his own to care. Leaving me wondering, leaving me with tears.

Love is like walking across a plank in the ocean to an oasis. So much to gain, yet so much to loose.

My new Motto in life

To give it all i've got. Some will take it in full, some will take it in parts and some will throw it all away.

Time will tell when true love finds me. I should not expose my heart so much to hurt. I should protect it but also give out love to the world. 

I shall open my heart to honesty and tenderness. 

Climbing the ladder barely touching the rungs

Its another day in paradise where the men are a plenty, career opportunities abound, life starting to touch the sky and friends and family to support through anything life throws this way.

So the last week was when i really owned my first property, became a manager, became a national account manager and won my first very big pursuit.

This past few months have also been a turning point in my life, i learnt to cook and became healthy, i focused on me, great clothes, make up, hair, beauty and confidence. 

This is the year where life is taking off once again.