Remember

Long time ago i believed in soul mates and lovers. That life was full of brightness and that one day i would end up leading spectacular.

Then life happened.

And now i settle for mediocre or barely that. I think it's amazing because the world has brought to me a sense of reality. That i am complaining or down for no reason. That what i have is actually something wonderful.

So no fireworks, no major sparks. A life thats not sad but not entirely happy either. No real hope for the future but thinking i am escapin something worse.

I have more today than what i had when expectations were high. Am i happier? I am not sure.

I'm exhausted with life.

 

Life in someone else's country

I'm back in SK and living that life once again. The business stakes are getting higher and the level of luxury is getting higher.

I spoke to my boyfriend back hom for a bit. Most of the time i just miss him and i love him. He's studying and barely has any time for that deeper level conversation but thats why they say relationships are hard.

That next stage of life. I am so ready for it and i am not.

I can feel myself getting older.