So much depth and sensitivity to you

You're a quiet one but as I get to know you more and more, I uncover layer after layer of good qualities, generosity, a kind heart and gentle nature where you just care for those close to you. You have a simple life but one that is really really nice. The types of lifestyle that does me good rather than this st Kilda mess I find myself in. 

I can picture a life with you. And maybe it's time to really let go of those images in my head of something more, something different and enjoy the feeling of something that is making me very very happy. 

I like me better when I am with you

 You are so different to what I thought I would end up with.  So so different. Yet I love who I am when I am with you. You inspire me. You make me a better person.

The ultimate in trust and intimacy

 So we have been hanging out. And I trust him easily without even thinking about it. And the other night I let him tie me up and spank and whip me. But I whole heartedly trusted him. And we speak about fantasies and share our feelings and we talk. So much depth, friendship and trust. 

Life is all about ups and. downs

 But we always knew. that.

and. who cares.

But I do. I cry. when I. don't hear from you when I used to. I don't need to. Or do I? I just don't know or I care...

I sent him a message and at least his first response will let me know if he is real or not. Because when we are not together even for healthy reasons I feel insecure...

Only time will tell what comes of anything if at all... and I have less enthusiasm, competition and what may be these days. 

I want easy and what works.

Nothing magical.

Another wonderful few days

I just turn up these days at your place assuming I will stay a while and you ask me to stay for longer.  We have become so comfortable. And I have started kissing you because that's what I like to do. And we seem to be getting closer and closer as each day passes.  Who would have thought this suburban life could be so wonderful. 

I love that we sleep in and cuddle together and then a little bit more. That we make each other tea and take turns cooking and doing the dishes. We go for walks but we also do our own thing as well. You work and I work and it's easy enough. We play with your dog. And we laugh all night to comedy before cuddling and having sex. 

I have not been in anything that's felt so comfortable and so real. So honest. So accepting of another man for the way he is. And not having those expectations I used to that ruined it all. Not even needing a future. Just kindness in the moment with no games. 

sometimes decision making is on point

 If only I had realised you were right in front of me. Again another night reaching out to be friends and the man from far away is well far away but not capable of making any sort of real commitment.

Meanwhile my new man knows all about responsibilities. And we stay in touch all the time. I am falling in love with him.

I made the right choice

 I was into you for so long. waited for you. Imagined a life with you. But even as friends you don't stay in touch. you have legit reasons and your business and India is hard. but I am glad I walked away to another.