Listening to that inner voice

Somewhere along the way i realised that you were not all that you made out to be. Lust getting in the way of professionalism, my normally impeccable instinct shielded by sexual chemistry between us.

And we danced our dance and had our time. My brilliance, your brilliance, we made a team. You were a mentor as well as a crush.

And then one day the admiration started drawing blanks and i started questioning your integrity, weather i could really trust you.

You treated me well, you were an amazing mentor and a great boss, but the time has come for me to fly away.

People work for moments in time, and ours is over.

The allure of the unavailable

Dear David's and the Max's of the world...

I fall head over heels with you, yet it is not you that i fall so hard in love with. Those moments convincing myself that you were my soulmate were not all that real. The allure of your unavailabilty, or the fact that we would need to move oceans, climb mountains, transcend cultures to make it work. That was but the appeal and perhaps i was or still am not ready for a relationship and this is my way of clouding it.

I still miss you

To my dear David, i still think of you, i see your face in all aspects of life.

There is something linking you and I. I wish you would see that we belong together.

But right now i put my efforts elsewhere, move on with life, meet other men, have fun with my friends, have a smile on my face.

Deep down i think you and I would work. I miss you. I love you.

If only you did too.

Why don't you just call me?

So we caught up and i thought we had a lovely time?

We would be great together?

I would love to see you again?

But perhaps i was mistaken, perhaps you did not feel the spark.

Why don't you just call me?

Enjoying the moment

Whist i may at times look back, despite the way it may seems most of the times i am living the best times of my life right now. No longer the awkward & gawky girl, no longer with the money troubles or the compromise, no longer with the anticipation of what the future will hold, what others may think.

Its that confidence within yourself. Its when you know your surrounded by beautiful friends. Its when you love where you live, the car you drive, the career you hold, the clothes you wear and your bank balance.

This is where i want to be. Sure i get upset by this guy or that - but then i get just as excited dating another one.

Truth be told i don't crave for the past for this is the best time of my life.

To have a friend again

Remember the days of laughter and giggles at absolutely nothing. Remember the adventures spend achieving zilch but the mere memory still brings on cramps from laughing so hard.

So in the past month i met a girl that was just like me. Its like we had known each other forever, the girlfriend i had been missing all along.

Wacky wonderful moments...