Where are we now?

Last couple of weeks have been somewhat of a battle, and somewhat refreshing.

So battling with health a little bit. Fainting and not knowing why. Almost a broken nose and a concussion and pretty much trying to sleep it all off.

But getting back slowly with new found appreciation for the energy i have for life. A little bit jaded on love for the guy that never called and an man i used to love who wanted back in but i could not bear the thought.

I'm not quite sure where life is going right now. Things are just going well. But nothing spectacular.

I crave to fall in love with a nice guy.

Why?

Why go to all the effort of asking me out only to ignore me once you got my number? What was the point of it all? Another ending before it even began, goodbye to you, the man who I never got to know.

You are somebody else's problem

From today onwards, i am out. I have found another. I have found that passion back in my life. I don't think of a what could of been with you. I never really knew you. You were somebody else. And now you could belong to another. My mind and heart walk away where once it was just my words. I am excited about another man. One that i may share a lifetime of happiness with. Who knows? Its just brunch at this moment but he makes me smile when i think of him. I get excited by the thought of him. Anticipation of what will be. These are the best times of our lives. I really do hope the best for you. You and your lifestyle. I look to you and feel pity. I see the craving for true love in your eyes but something in you, stops a little short of going all the way. Everyone has their demons and their dreams and wants and hopes. I hope you find what makes you happy in life. Goodbye to you.

A surprise from left field

So the last person i was expecting asked me out on a date. And it came from far left field that i didn't know hot ot respond. But he's growing on me over the last few days. A genuine nice guy and my heart looks towards him. The healing, the growth of the last few months and getting hurt a few too many times is making way for good judgement. Looking reality in the eye and wanting to love again. So five words to describe the new him. Genuine, deep, stable, perceptive, driven

Trying Reiki

I felt crummy going in, not really knowing what it was and hoping for some healing. I felt crummy afterwards. But they say that it stirs up the blockages in you, brings them to the surface and clears you away rather than surpressing all that does not work in your life. Temporary madness for a better world. So starting to feel lots better. Healthier. All up. Clarity returning.