Patience is not my strong point but i am trying

There is a man i love and its really all been me with all the issues and problems. As 5 months of unemployment would have it.

I opened my heart to him and he was wonderful. And i took advantage of his generosity and pushed him aay as much as he could. A wall i put up for protection.

Now his dad is here and he has no time for me. Too much on. I just need to be patient and let life roll as it should.

I love him a lot and i hope i have not gone too far. If i have i have done the best i can with what i know and for that next big thing i will be a better person. But its about becoming a better person with him for i love him to bits.

I hope we can make it work. A bit of space and time and distance to make a heart grow fonder and love to shine through for we do love each other to bits.

Good night my lovely. I love you more than anything and miss you even more. I send messages of this to the net for i do not know that you want to hear this right now.

A man that i love

I think he is wonderful. This is a life lesson in compromise. And if we make it through we will become better people for it.

I need to meet him half way. Or even where he is. Respect his model of the world and understand mine is different. In times of trouble do it his way and give myself a break. Love him unconditionally.


He is a lovely wonderful man with the best of intentions.

On kicking new goals

And works brilliant. I love it. I am really kicking some massive goals. I feel like me again. 

To the love of my life

I'm sorry i stuffed up and just didn't appreciate the way i should have. You have been amazing and i need to seperate the culture and the age out of us to see that your intentions have always been pure and the best.

The thing is i love you to bits. I crave to fall asleep in your arms. Instead i write to the internet.

Good night baby. I miss you a lot. I hope i can speak to you soon. I love you.