Here i am once again, a year on, back from holidays, sitting on this very couch, alone by myself with my invincible friends.
This time its ok. Its been one big year. Full of friendships, romance, fitness, adventure, sitting back and relaxing, girly chats, traveling the world, making it and then some and just a few little hurts. Another year i can say goodbye to with a smile and another year i can look forward to welcoming.
What will the next year bring? Who knows?
I've been away for a month and sometimes life and the moments that took my breath away need some reflection. Living in someone else's world, borrowing their habits, their food, their mannerisms and what makes them laugh and cry is all that one needs to grow. Stolen moments of another's life to grow within myself.
So what have i learnt? That sometimes its nice to be with another. That sometimes a man, a partner or a best friend isn't meant to be text book perfection, that the unlikeliest of people can make the best of friends. Sometimes having a good heart can mean more than anything else. Sometimes you know a good man when you meet one and it can take your breath away when you realise. He may not make any of your cuts, you may not even realise it at first. Sometimes for a moment in time i wonder if thats what happiness is about. To be with a man like him. The one thats so simple, so fit and adventurous, isn't interested in taking over the world, has that crooked smile and poor grammar but such goodness in his heart it takes your breath away.
This time its ok. Its been one big year. Full of friendships, romance, fitness, adventure, sitting back and relaxing, girly chats, traveling the world, making it and then some and just a few little hurts. Another year i can say goodbye to with a smile and another year i can look forward to welcoming.
A few months ago i met a man and for some reason once again i thought he was the one. He turned out to be another frog turned into a prince for but a short time. Another David, another M in disguise. I almost fell for him but this time i didn't. I liked him from afar, to afraid by the hurt from the past to give my heart away to a man that did not deserve it. It takes time to get over somebody, especially when it just fizzles out without any closure. Its sad but its time to say goodbye to all that it was.
What will the next year bring? Who knows?
I've been away for a month and sometimes life and the moments that took my breath away need some reflection. Living in someone else's world, borrowing their habits, their food, their mannerisms and what makes them laugh and cry is all that one needs to grow. Stolen moments of another's life to grow within myself.
So what have i learnt? That sometimes its nice to be with another. That sometimes a man, a partner or a best friend isn't meant to be text book perfection, that the unlikeliest of people can make the best of friends. Sometimes having a good heart can mean more than anything else. Sometimes you know a good man when you meet one and it can take your breath away when you realise. He may not make any of your cuts, you may not even realise it at first. Sometimes for a moment in time i wonder if thats what happiness is about. To be with a man like him. The one thats so simple, so fit and adventurous, isn't interested in taking over the world, has that crooked smile and poor grammar but such goodness in his heart it takes your breath away.
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