I know one day i will miss these moments when he is so patient and kind. But at the end of the day i am not getting what i want from him. Is it a matter of being patient and kind. Is this different to other times where i have picked fights. Am i really not getting what i want? Why am i craving for another man that i have not yet met.
I'm not wishing he was here. That magic is gone. Will it come back immediately? Will life work out for us.
I think time will tell. Its about having a go and having an open mind but standing by my needs as well. I can't keep this up for too long.
There are things i want from life and i know i am being impatient. He is a good looking boy who is fun to be with. Is he the guy to settle down with though? Will he ever. There is many a man i could settle down with. Somebody ready to commit and ready for the next stage in their life.
Chasing fairy tales has gone on for long enough. Were we a holiday romance that dragged on too long during the course of a year off to study. Real life is setting in and our differences show.
He sends me beautiful messages. Buys me flowers. Drowns me with gifts and attention. Yet he has betrayed me also. He talks shit about me to his sister and his friends. A man i loved and trusted and wanted so much to be that couple with. He's lost my trust. All relationships lose their trust.
I dream of a man that will be by my side and stand up for me no matter what. I hope he can be that man.
I'm not wishing he was here. That magic is gone. Will it come back immediately? Will life work out for us.
I think time will tell. Its about having a go and having an open mind but standing by my needs as well. I can't keep this up for too long.
There are things i want from life and i know i am being impatient. He is a good looking boy who is fun to be with. Is he the guy to settle down with though? Will he ever. There is many a man i could settle down with. Somebody ready to commit and ready for the next stage in their life.
Chasing fairy tales has gone on for long enough. Were we a holiday romance that dragged on too long during the course of a year off to study. Real life is setting in and our differences show.
He sends me beautiful messages. Buys me flowers. Drowns me with gifts and attention. Yet he has betrayed me also. He talks shit about me to his sister and his friends. A man i loved and trusted and wanted so much to be that couple with. He's lost my trust. All relationships lose their trust.
I dream of a man that will be by my side and stand up for me no matter what. I hope he can be that man.
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