It was a combination of sabotage and falling for the wrong man

You were always domineering, without compassion and thinking of only yourself. You seemed like you care but it was all about maintaining your image, you never really bothered to get to know me or drill deep into anything that made me need a hug. It was all about you. So yes, i choose the wrong man. One that would abuse me but i stayed. And then there was the self sabotage. Doing stupid things because i felt neglected. The flirting in front of him, trying to make him jealous, trying to make him love me. I thought i had sorted this out in my head. I had not. It was all so stuffed. Today i said my goodbyes.