Feeling a little better

Clearing the head. Seeing the positive spin in the world.

Lets not call it game over until it really is. No need to start a rebound process before the event has happened. Yes i feel crap but if i were to think why, its because i have been in similar situations with other men and its gone face up and i've stumbled and crashed and burned.

But thats where this feeling comes from. That he will do the same.

In all reality i was out with him on friday night, met his sister and all his friends on saturday night, he stayed over or i stayed over and he has not run away. He is still so sweet and holds me ever so gently in his arms. Perhaps he just wants to take his time through all this. Perhaps he is not a morning person. He is not running away. He is enquiring more and more about my life.

He is busy with work, thats the nature of what he does.  Its been many weeks and we have a rhythm forming. His flowers are still blooming. We are having magnificent conversations. His friends are trying to tell me he's a great person and accepting me with open arms as is his sister.

Yes there are moments that don't quite work. Why did he not introduce me to anyone. Why did he not admit who i was. Why am i being demoted to a friend?

The thing is i really like him. We have something together. We just need to keep that spark going. I just need to keep trying because while i don't feel right its because of experiences with other men. And he is no other man, he is different, has his act together and deep down i trust that he is a good person.