Wallowing in self pity

Sometimes that is all you need to do. Just drop the high moral ground and wallow in self pity and hatred towards the world. Share it with a friend and take them off that high road and let them wallow too.

And sometimes it feels great. Because your usually always optimistic and the world is full of moments that take your breath away. But sometimes its ok to just say that you don't have it together and take that pressure off and breath a sigh of release.

Let it out that you hate him and that you may never speak to him ever again, let that thought contemplate and simmer and marinate. Fly away in your mind and share it with a friend and blow away all that steam. He'll never know.

Todays been great. It was great to wallow away and give myself a break for a change. And then pumping some iron and a run along the beach with my best friend, giving it all we've got and looking fabulous as walkers by checked us out, sweat and all.  Then its the chats and the conversations about being successful and happy and analyzing the men to death in that really safe environment made of only the best of friends.

Dreaming up destinations, life plans, collecting lessons learnt, what not to do, the book of scrapped ideas and guides on how to do it.

Sometimes you just need to let go to get it all back again.