Today was a blast from the past. I met up with an old flame that was really ever the only man that i had a real relationship with. One of those heart wrenching yet ecstatic life memories that only two lovers who come together can concot.
We are friends these days, catch up occasionally and the tenderness is still there. The friendship is as strong as ever. It always feels like no time has passed. Honesty, integrity, trust. Thats what we are made of.
And deep down i still love him and there is still that chemistry between us. Our silly jokes, our conversations, the laughs in between moments and that ability to be completely stupid together. Then there's that intellectual match and world changing discussions evaluating the ways of the world and where we fit into it all.
I wish somehow we could make it work. But he is with another. And these days being with another is serious. We are no longer kids. There are whole lives involved.
I wonder if he feels the same way? That sometimes there is an inkling in the back of his mind that perhaps we have both grown up from back in the day and that we are perfect for each other.
I still love him. I wonder if one day...
No comments:
Post a Comment