So when it all goes down hill it was not G that i called upon. It was K who has been there all along. It wasn't even R who turns up intermittently. And sure i didn't blab my heart out, it was just that the little hint of contact got immediately requited and made me feel better.
When i think about it, its moments like these and weather or not your man can be there for you or not that makes it. Who cares about looks when your stuck on the other side of the world, about to have a nervous breakdown and you feel all alone in the world. I want and need a guy i can call on when i need him. Its moments like these when life feels so bad that makes you relaise how important certain aspects of life are.
Sure i fell for G, but is a man that can't keep his word what i need. There will be more of these moments and i need to be able to depend on a man.
Tonight at an ultimate worst moments K brought some spark back into my life without even knowing it. Its one of those moments where i just want a hug and cry for a moment. i couldn't do it with G or R. I could with K.
He's in it forever. The other are not.
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