Part of me rejoices. For a while i struggled to feel and cry. The way i am feeling right now, shows that i care. That i've worn my heart on a sleeve and he's trampled all over it.
I'm jealous. But i think its because of all the crap from my father. He used to love my cousins over me. I associate him with that paternal influence and i think deep down i get scared that i am not number one.
Sometimes i am not. I got jealous when he complimented both the girls at work. When he was chummy with her. I was retaliating really. Out of jealousy.
I'm jealous. But i think its because of all the crap from my father. He used to love my cousins over me. I associate him with that paternal influence and i think deep down i get scared that i am not number one.
Sometimes i am not. I got jealous when he complimented both the girls at work. When he was chummy with her. I was retaliating really. Out of jealousy.
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